Hello everyone...!!!
well this is my first time I create a blog....wish I would be a great blogger soon..well I'm not really good in English but I'll my best..
I will be 20 years old by this October....and this was me on July 2010
Well you guys can see how fat I am...my weight on that time was around 105kg....and I never feel to be slim or I never think to take care of my health or even myself..all what I know is eating and keep eating of whatever I can eat .... I never think to be beautiful and have a light skin colour.......what I had on that time was just a very fat body,double chin and a dark skin colour...(nightmare)
But, the weird thing is I always desire a beautiful person to be in my life..I mean I want someone who is beautiful and with a great body light skin...I know everyone desires an angel to be in their lives...I always think to have a beautiful person but I never think whether a beautiful person that I desire also wants me or not.....and on that moment I just thought that I am already beautiful enough.....
On september 2010 I decided to go to Jordan to continue my study so, you can imagine the feeling when a village boy is flying to other country by flight for the first time..... huuhhh!!
I went for a medical check up before I left to Jordan and my weight had just increased 5 KG more!!!!...
well the max of me...168cm height with 110 KG....
The picture was taken on January 2011.....
One thing you should know most people in Jordan are so beautiful cute and they just have great body....they just like models in magazines and television..
I just felt like ohhhhhhhh!!!! How they can be so hot like that??!!...I just cant believe that...
Every second I just dream about them...:)))).....
My hearbeat becomes so fast when I see those people.....God created them with very good appearances..and sometimes I think Is God fair???......noooooo!!!....I cant think like that...God is always fair...He knows the best.....
here in Jordan every time I walk at the outside with my friends I just started to feel that I'm the ugliest one...black fat person..
I see my friends they are slim light skin colour...good looking.facial hair.but me...nothing!!!....They have a lot of friends... Arab friends....but me got nothing....if there are...they all just want to take advantage on me....
I started to feel jealous...so I changed to wear other clothes that maybe look fit on me...like a muscular guy...but nothing worked...all I got was a belly....I just hate myself....
and one day I signed up a website like want to make friends and dating..I uploaded my picture...the above pics...and when I send them messages and the first thing they replied me was very rude..they said 'sorry you are not my type..i hate fat black guy'...
Only God knows my feeling...I know it sounds silly but if you were me you will know what i felt on that moment...not only one but most of them said the same....here are some of my pictures during February, March, April and May 2011...
you guys know what...on that time I just felt that I'm already beautiful and cute enough....with a full confident enough i went out for walking and I got nothing..:((.....
So, on June 2011 I decided to go back to Malaysia for 3 months and i didn't want to take summer class...but on that time I already lost 18kg..so on that time my weight was 92kg...I lost it maybe because I walked so much here or maybe the weather here or other else i didn't know..and yet I didn't plan anything to be slim on that moment.....
When I got back to Malaysia my family said that I look slim little bit and lighter little bit....and they said if I be more slim I will be more handsome and cute....they all said to me like giving me an encouragement...my heart just felt like I must be slim...for myself...
so I search everything about to be slim and whatever about to burn fat and calories..and also to have a lighter skin colour...I planned i must be slim before I get back to Jordan...I was about to buy a slimming pil or like other product for slim but my friends advised me not to because it is very unhealthy way....they asked me to have a regular exercise and diet...
what I do for 3 months??????...
FOOD
1. never eat rice
2. never take a sugar
3. never drink a cold drinking
4. never drink a bicarbonate drink
What I eat??
Breakfast
1. oat biscuits ( 2 pieces)
2.hot tea with no sugar.
3.a tomato
4. some cucumber.
Lunch
1. any protein source like chicken or meat or fish..
2.vegetables
3.a tomato
4. some cucumber
5.mineral warm water
Dinner
1.Fruits..
2.mineral warm water water.
What I do?
for the exercise..I did in the MORNING and EVENING...
1. Jogging for 15 minutes
2.sit up 30 times...
3. Jump at the same place 200 times
*I did the same things for 3 months morning and evening...
IMPORTANT!!!
1. drink a hot tea with no sugar everyday....It will burn your calories easily as tea contains citric acid...citric acid helps burning calories..
2.drink a mineral warm water 2 liters daily....It will increase your metabolism...once your metabolism has increased it will process your excessive calories easily and wont make you fat... that's why if we see slim people they eat so much but still stay slim..
3. don't eat anything before 2 hours you want to exercise..
4. don't have a shower after eating..It will make your stomach becomes big...because once you have a shower your blood pressure becomes lower so if you have a shower directly after you eat...the food cant be digested easily as the blood pressure is low...so it will make your stomach becomes fat...
5. dont sleep after eating...we usually feel sleepy after eating...so to avoid it..eat fruit first before eat your meal...and remember eat for your energy,,, don't eat for your stomach...
6. if you feel hungry at anytime just drink a lot of mineral warm water and fruits... that's why I forbid you not to take sugar...because you can receive energy from sugar fruits...sugar fruits wont make you fat..
7. I always drink a lemon juice with no sugar...just take lemon..squeeze it and drink it...as you know it helps burn calories because of citric acid...and lemon is good to bright your skin colour...everyday i drink lemon juice....
8. for your lunch like protein....just eat some chicken or meat or fish from what your mom cooks...you don't have to cook for another one...
9. I just take carbohydrate source only in the morning...oat biscuit...and i don't eat rice at all...because it is step to be slim..trust me it is true...
10. you must eat even you want to be slim..diet doesn't mean you don't have to eat...because when you don't eat your body wont have calories so you wont have energy...and that will make our body will use little energy only..so how we want to work out if we don't have energy??....
11. I always set in my mind that I have to do these all because I want to be slim,cute and beautiful body...and always be happy to do these all... don't be stress because once you stress nothing will work..
12. the one thing that you will be happy to these all is when you get an encouragement and something that makes you sad because of your physical and you really want to change...
13. I know at first you will see nothing change and you will give up easily but trust me don't give up and keep it up..you will get what you want....trust me!!
So back to my story...after 3 months I did these all and I got what I want....
JULY 2011
August 2011
September 2011
But I still look fat....because in three months from 92kg to 75kg...I lost just about 17kg...and my height was 169cm...so my BMI still overweight...and I don't feel satisfied...so I keep going with the same things...... so when I got back to Jordan on September 2011..all my friends really surprised with me...I just felt like a diva!!!...hahahahha........they asked me what I have done...and some said I have to keep it up...so here is my picture...
October 2011
i still fat!!!
Novermber 2011
for my face..i use lemon,fair & lovely and i always scrub my face and my neck to get better....
January 2012
this is me with my weight on that time was 70 kg with my height 169cm.....with some facial hair...but i want more...im not greedy but i just feel happy and more comfortable when im more slim... so i just keep it up but i just started to eat rice and some cakes...an etc..but i never drink bicarbonate drink....
and i work out myself to be better and now my weight is 66kg with my height 172cm...I already got an ideal weight and body...
see you all can see the different...trust me if you can do it...and of course I almost get anorexia nervosa...I'm afraid to eat because i don't want to be fat but remember once you are active i mean always have exercise it is okay...just eat what you want...you will not get fat back...:)......now i just feel really comfortable to go out...and i can see there are so many hypocrites...when i was fat they hate me but now they just like me....
If you all want to ask me anything..feel free ask me..:)))/.///I would be very happy......I'm still single....hehehehhe...I would love to make friends from all over the world...
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